Saturday, January 17, 2009

Praise God! The Chemo went better this time!

Chemo went better this time so good news there and praise to God. Nate had been going through a couple of days of not responding and eyes rolling back into the head which led them to believe it was seizures. At this point they do not think it was seizures and say it most likely was either the tumors or the actual chemo doing it. I have been at home with the other two boys today and Jackie said that he was moving his arms today and seemed to be tracking with his eyes and did not see the eyes rolling back. I am here now, brought the boys up and we did our night to night switch. He seems to be resting peacefully now, that is until respiratory came in and did his every four hour treatment of sticking things down his nose and throat which he hates. These drugs and tumors can do things to you one day and something else the next day and go back the following day which leads all the different departments and specialists to different conclusions and theories. So you hear this might be permanent from one and another says it is temporary. This gets confusing and frustrating, and if we listened to what every one of them said we would never have a calm moment, but we have turned it all over to God because we know HE is in control and has got it all figured out. I appreciate all of the comments that say something to the effect about how well it seems that Jackie and I have held up. Trust me, we have many moments that we want to just lose it. This truly is the hardest thing that either of us has ever gone through and it just keeps happening, but keep in mind Nate is the one having to go through it. We hate this beyond comprehension, everything in us would take his place, or push some sort of magic button to completely heal him. We have prayed, had tons of people come up here and prayed over him, and people all over the world are praying for him. I will tell you right now, Jackie and I believe that he will come out of this. God has HIS own timing and plans. I will not pretend to understand it…but I have a peace about this and the prayers are what have done that. Without a doubt, I know that God is watching over Nate and our family. We feel so close to HIM right now. I know this may sound crazy, but we do. Please keep the prayers going…he will come out of this fully healed and cancer free. God sees all of the good things coming out of this and HE will prove Himself faithful. I honestly do not know how anyone could go through this without believing that God is in control. You would literally have no hope and would throw in the towel, because from the world’s view Nate’s situation does not look good. Read Luke 7:1-10. I desire to amaze HIM with my faith, HE can do anything, amaze HIM with your faith concerning the things in your life and watch HIM work..HE wants to. May God bless you all.

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